Doing vs Being

Tricks are a mask I sometimes wear to hide from my fear of insufficiency. Well I have to have some value to someone right... I can do a backflip triple barspin on a bicycle. But I'm learning that it is an infinite pursuit that won't satisfy me the way I think it will. 

"You've already achieved goals, you said would make you happy."

I posted a video last week with this as the caption. And it is still something I struggle with. I still believe we need goals to move towards as the method of learning greater lessons, but I find I often forget about the balance between doing and being. 

I listened to a podcast called Modern Wisdom this week about the art of self mastery. The guest was Shi Heng Yi and he talked about this balance. I have found myself getting caught up in the 'doing' end of the spectrum. And this is obviously a problem after a while and is not sustainable. But the greater issue is when I pull myself out of 'doing' it often ends up at the other end of the spectrum in just 'being'. 

In the last few weeks I've struggled with being a tennis ball, smacked between these two positions. And this podcast made me aware of that fact. Sometimes that's all it takes. Just the awareness of the issue, and not necessarily jumping to an immediate solution. My goal for next week is to sit in a more stable state. I'll keep you all updated. In the meantime I would highly recommend listening to that podcast or honestly any other podcast from Chris Williamson (Modern Wisdom host).

The purpose of this blog is to give the people who care about my journey a deeper insight into my life. Short form content can be tiring and I find I get a lot of value from other mediums like podcasts. I don't have all the answers and this is just the documentation of my thoughts and development, not a life guide. Thank you for reading this. It means a lot.

See ya next week...