Things are going well

Things are going well. This time in Sweden has really given me a lot of space to think. And I previously would have guessed that more time to think was the last thing I needed. But I'm too far down the overthinker rabbit hole for that. The only way out is through. 

I have the space to think completely uninterrupted, alongside the facilities to be able to train my hardest for slopestyle. I feel like I've taken enjoying the process to a different level for myself. There's no desire for better tools, I'm just in it, and loving it. And this doesn't translate to every single moment being filled with happiness, but with peace. I'm at peace with the fact that I'm working towards something, and enjoying documenting not only my technical riding abilities improving, but my mental space, strategies and frames. 

I think it's also because its within my control now. Humans innately have a desire to fear the unknown and uncontrollable. With how everything is in my life right now, I feel like I have the most control over my future I've ever had. I know that can become a slippery slope if that control gets taken away from me though so I'll try not to hang too much off that.

I've also found this blog incredibly helpful with structuring my thoughts. Everything can seem so messy when its just thoughts spiraling around up there. I find that writing forces me to structure the thoughts and make sense of them. Most of the time I just feel stupid for not finding the answer sooner, as it becomes so clear after writing it down. 

I hope that putting my thoughts out on the internet can help some people. Even if no one agrees with anything I say, but resonates with the chronic over thinking problem, I'm happy with that. Just documenting my journey in both the physical and mental realm, because both are just as important.

See ya next week...